MY BLOG.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Hmm i guess the whole TEAM thing
was a misunderstanding!
They actually still do care for me
Now that i realized that
I feel up lifted i guess..
I mean the events that happened tonight i wont forget
Tonight was the night
who i find out who were my real friends

It may have ended but, like i got told today.
Love is a gift
You can't take it away from anyone
And you can't force someone to take it
Those are the words ill remember

I mean i have to admit i still have them feelings
I don't want to change them
but i guess i'd have too

i'd like to catch up with TEAM and apologize to them
For making them feel that way
and ill be sure to do that
sooner or later!

aha I can't believe jamie and jaytee are actually willing to mission it to my hosue
just to talk to me i honestly appreciate what they do for me
Through the holidays, ive gotten to know them more
and have to say they are like family to me!

So I thank you all
From the bottom of my Heart
bwah i know i sound like a girly bitch
But, eh Who gives a Fuck!

<3

11:32 PM

Thursday, January 28, 2010

I feel so much happier now!
Nothing can bum me out!
Not Even School, because
Shes back!

Got to see her today
went shopping
but, i didn't get to get
Ksubi Or LeSpecs
I have to wait 2 more weeks
AND I HAVE MONEY THIS TIME!
but, since shes back...
BYE BYE MONEY aha

Now that i've moved into my old house with my uncle
omg there is so much responsibility I have to take up
Just then, had to pay $100 for my phone bill,
Bloody Jessikah made me go over my cap!
NOTE TO SELF - GET $25 FROM HER
hmm i guess a lot of things are going to change
with the family running a business now
i have to help out when im needed
sometimes without pay
but i dont mind because now i realize
My uncle can't do it alone
I was really intrigued what he said to me
"You Can't Clap with One Hand"
Meaning Everyone in the Family has to do their part
to make life easy for one another
and ill be sure to remember that 8D
well..TRY to anyways bwah you know how my Memory is!

OH AND OMFG what annoyed me today was!
How i couldn't find her a present
the Item i want
is SOLD OUT EVERYWHERE
ive been to 8 Different stores in 2 days
and not one has what i want
but i cant complain,
Save me Money 8D

Anyways new school tomorrow
im scared shitless NIGHTS <3

10:40 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

OH MY FKN GOD
I can't seem to find the time to finish IRIS
and I'm up to the Second Last Episode
GERRRR

Shes Finally Back!
and im seeing her tomorrow
I'm So Excited bwah
i know i sound like a girl
but fuck what people think
I MISS HER TO THE MAX!

11:37 PM

I really really!!
Can't wait for her to come back!

Even just thinking about her at times
i actually get teary
and
i can't believe i actually cried that time eh
on the phone

My Feelings for her have
Grown Stronger
Over the Holidays
I Really do Miss Her
and
I Hope she Understands
how i feel

OMFG and I Finally Get New Clothes!!
From Hong Kong
bwah i can't wait for that either harharhar

I've Set my Alarm for 7am
Just to give her a call when she gets back
but i hope her phone is turned on
because recently i haven't been able to Contact
her for 2 days

Theres More i Want to talk about but,
I'll Leave it for another night because
i need my beauty sleepp!

2:23 AM

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hmm Just got back from cruising around
with my friends and realized
how much I've missed
Since the Day I Met Her

I Don't Regret being with her
through all this time
AT ALL!

I just wanted to mention whats on my
mind at the moment 8D

Shes coming back tomorrow!
too bad i wont get the chance to see her but,
till Thursday!

You Don't Understand How Much I Miss Her
I've Never Experienced This Same
Feeling That I have For Her
Till She Came Into my Life
and I Can't Even
Imagine How Much I
Will Hurt If I Ever Lost,
My Everything

Love You Hun

2:17 AM

Friday, January 22, 2010

OMG i got worked up for nothing
the other night,
It was just all a misunderstanding
and stupid me!
out of all people

Didn't stop to think
and call her and talk about it LOL
Out of all people man!
This is the First
and Last time
I try not to talk issues out
I'm so ashamed TO THE MAX

It's kind of ironic of me i guess
well I'm Happy now

Today was a pretty nice day
i actually went to Blacktown
OMFG EWW
Didn't end up spending a lot of money
Just pretty much bummed around
But it was nice seeing some of my friends again
even if i haven't seen some of them
for only like 2 days bwah

IM A HAPPY CHAPPY!

2:39 AM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Hmm Today thought i might
finish off the last episode of
Liar Game

to take my mind of things

Miss You Hun.

4:16 PM

Just get
My Hopes Up
Just to
Knock Me Back Down

Forcing Myself
to Sleep
Trying to Ignore
the Feelings
of
Anger and Loneliness

What More Can I Say Right Now?

"Don't Worry I'll Tell You Later"

12:37 AM

Sunday, January 17, 2010

aww i miss her
i feel like taking
Pictures with Her
Just like the old times

8:36 PM

Friday, January 15, 2010

So im really ticked off
that i can't contact her and ive got credit!
finally
eh i swear im jinxed
but, i hope she is having fun at China
and buying be clothes 8D

nothing much on my mind today really
i think im starting to become a gamer again!
OMFG come back already!
so i don't get tempted to play games
PLUS
i miss you dearly!

12:53 AM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

It has been
Eleven Months since
she first became my
Everything

But, sadly i have no way of contacting her
since she is over at
Beijing
and something is wrong this the phone line

I really have missed her a lot
throughout the holidays
and still trying to cope

I'd like her to come back already
just to give her a
Simple Kiss

Two Months without her..
Hmm hope I'd
NEVER EVER
have to do this again

We've missed out on
so much together!

I Love You Hun
14 Feb 09

1:41 AM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

So im like rebal and like sneaked out of the house to play

HON

fk no life without my girlfriend

blooody jamie and jt asked me to go over his house

and bring my fkn comp just to play a

Dota-like-game

end up sneaking this massive computer out of the house and driving to the house

with like low petrol almost had to bloody push the car along the way there

so like played till 5.30 and decided to drive back home

and try and sneak the computer back in with 2 of my friends

and one of them bloody decides to do a fart!!

when we're trying to to wake anyone up

funniest shit out LOL

YEH IM TALKING TO YOU JAYTEE

you fag!

in the end i went back out at like 6 saying i was going

gym hehe

on the way home Jamie went to fill up his shit box of a car

with only $8 bwahha

and we and jt we're distracting him

made him over fill up to $10.50

and jamie was full shiting himself!

like OMG WTF DO I DO!!! FK MY LIFE!

LOL but me the hero! =D

went to scab like $2 from some random aussie

and

SAVED THE DAY 8D

1:42 AM

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Hmm i really do wish she came back already
I didn't think it would be this hard
Your in one world and shes in another
Everything is so different over there
by that i mean the timing and the environment
I honestly Just want a decent Conversation
where there are no barriers just for
One Night

It is really starting to get to me
and im pretty sure she notices it too
by the way i speak to her
and the tone of my voice.

I try to cover it up
with stories and updates on
what I have been doing without her
in My World
because, i don't want to seem like the person
complaining and the conversation starts to be about
us reminiscing and the mood of the conversation becomes
Sad

I just want her to enjoy herself over there
it is a Holiday in the first place.
which is why i TRY to keep my mouth shut
about these issues

Its not that she has done anything wrong
either have I
I've got nothing to hide
i just miss seeing her face and actually talking to her
one on one
face to face
But, the upside is that its
Only Another 4 Weeks
before she comes back
Just counting it down..
and now

I'm Officially Love Sick

1:44 AM